My Road to Peace

Have I really been missing this?
The smell of the air before it rains,
The smokey rain clouds rolling in
And the way the sun always peaks through
Or makes the clouds glow.

In this world,
There's so much to love
And, truely, so little to hate.
And the things that we hate
Are insignificant, small, and weak.

I've hated so deeply
These past few months.
My pain and rage consumed me.
All I felt was burning fire in my gut.
That fire swallowed my spirit,
My personality, my friends.

Declutter your mind,
Someone told me,
Relax and you'll notice
All the beatiful things around.

And now, as I breathe deep,
I realize how much I missed
The smell of the grass
The happiness nature gave me
The peace of a strong gust in summer.

There's so much to love
And so little to hate.
So, why did I,
As someone of strong will,
Let the things I hate
Conquer that which I love?

Betrayal, Lust, Love
Rage, Pride, Sin,
Pain, Hatred, Envy.
These emotions tore through me like rapids,
All in a few months time.

This wave of emotion
Crushed my soul,
Scattered my thougts,
Pained my conscience.

It's time to let go.
It's past time to let go.
The pain will stay, deep inside,
But it doesn't have to own me.